a little twist of fate

well it's the wee hours of the morn again. went to bed late and woke up early. can't figure that one out. maybe it was the dream that woke me. a woman running from some mean s.o.b. it was like i was watchin' a movie, but sensed that i was the woman. there was a time i did feel like i was running, so long ago. once i settled into NM, i felt i was no longer running. and the s.o.b. is gone... so anyways, i got dressed and went for my creamer. never can keep enough creamer here in the house. thought i'd update you on the time of my surgery. well i don't know the exact time, but i have to be at the VA Hospital @ 6:15am. i'm guessin' i'll be in surgery within an hour from that-or i at least hope so. would like to be out of there by 9am just in time for a good breakfast.....so yesterday i was blown away. i went to church to pick something up for Marsha she had left behind before going over to Jen's office again. the church has hired someone from a temp agency i had her and she was going to be able to get the files off the computer for Marsha. well i went in to meet the individual and Tim was there too. as we were being introduced and shaking hands, the woman and i both sensed we knew each other. Raechal, the woman, said i've seen you around. Really? i said. she started name a couple places and soon as she said "gym", it clicked. i screamed! Raechal!!! then i gave her a big hug. i know her. i knew her 15yrs ago. her and i used to hang out together from time to time before my illness hit me. the only reason i lost contact with her was because of the illness. i was slipping into psychosis and didn't know it. my only world to me at that time was work, home and my altered reality. i couldn't remember her or my other friends, other than work, to get in contact with. i was psychotic for about a year before someone noticed. by then it was noticeable to a fellow co-worker/friend. well by then i also had lost touch with all my friends including Raechal. i had only seen her in once in passing years later but we didn't reconnect. funny thing i was only thinking about her not long ago-last month i think-wondering whatever happened to her. anyways, later yesterday afternoon we sat, had a smoke and chatted for a few minutes. i didn't recognize her initially because she's grown her hair, plus her body and her have matured since her youthful years. she's about 10yrs younger than me. anyways, it was sooo great to reconnect with her. she'll be doing Marsha's job, but we'll go have coffee soon. that was such a wonderful surprise for me. it was like recollecting a little part of myself again. when we hung out years ago, she was a young, bright woman with a great future ahead of her. she was a bit of a punk then too, but arent' we all in our youth at times. i know i was anyways. so i look forward to catchin up with her at coffee. my how times have changed us both. i am in great gratitude for her return in my life. what a twist surrounding Marsha's dismissal. you know they say when one door closes another one opens, but i had no clue that would include me in this situation. blessings do come in disguises at times. i'm still in awe over this. what a wonderful gift!