alas! i got my Madison fix last night. it's been since Thanksgiving since Marsha and i got to visit. i told Marsha that she needs to get Diana to let us have her once a week. that was my usual time with her until Diana moved them out of Marsha's house. anyways, it was a wonderful visit although i was plain tuckered out for the night. i worked all day after working late friday night. it's been awhile since working a full day saturday so i had forgotten how long the day can get. however at the end of the work day, i did get to talk to Rev Julie a bit. we had a great chat. she's such a good influence for me and support. i can hardly wait until she's on board full time which i now know will be beginning Jan 11th. at least i have a date to look forward to. i will talk with her as much as i need to in order to get thru the church politics. and ya know those politics are not much different than at the p.o. the problem has been i keep letting my guard down at church. i realized after our chat yesterday i need to put up that postal mentality of mine there=i really don't give a damn and take everything with a grain of salt and keep trucking. i also stayed away from the politics at the p.o. somehow though people at the church find me and give me an ear full. i've been struggling as far as what to say to them, but yesterday at the end of the day, i remember the thought "be the change you wish to be" and i'll start being a broken record with that. and it finally hit me that's it's been all the anger that's been getting to me. so i've got to find a way to steer away from it. i'm already working on a plan. but with Rev Julie's support, i can hold up better. i'll say my prayers for God's support too, daily......anyways, yesterday was a good day. i'm just worn out and i woke with a cold this morn. and wouldn't you know it, i'm out of tea. for sum unknown reason i always like hot tea when i have a cold, but i'll have to settle for coffee this morn. i'm also taking my whiskey too. i have my flask in the car and will take a shot if the sniffles get worse today. i've never drank at church before, but there's always a first time...lol for now, i'm off. maybe get a little more sleep before church services this morn. Blessings my friends. i have a great day!